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Sunday, June 6, 2010

He Loved Me - Even When I Was Mad At Him...

What do you do - When you love God but you're also so mad at Him - that you want to back away from Him? You are so angry - that you back away from church - your core group of Christian friends - your devotionals? This is where I have been the past three (3) weeks... I'm angry... But even through my anger - He made His presence and His love known to me.....

We have been going through our first serious trials of being a parent to a teen - A teen that decided she knew best... A teen that created such a mess that she could not find her way out... Instead of seeking help from us her parents - she decided to take out her anger on us.... She covered her fear and lack of control by being rebellious and disrespectful....

Before things started to spiral out of control - my daughter had left a message with the dean of girls at her school... She wanted to talk to her about something... Due to the busyness of the end of the year school activities - the dean did not get back to her for over a week...

God's timing is Perfect!!!! This is what the dean said when she called me after her discussion with my kid... This is what happened:

The dean finally called my daughter in to talk and my kid was mad...The first thing my daughter said is this, "I know why you called me in here - I don't know why my mom can't stay out of my business!" The dean advised my daughter she had no idea what she was talking about... She said that she called my daughter in because she had left a note that she wanted to talk.... My kid was shocked.... The dean asked her if she wanted to talk about what she meant... At first my kid said no and then all of a sudden everything came out... This huge weight was lifted off my kid's shoulders... The secret burdens she was hiding were freed and when my daughter came home and we talked - we cried together... and the healing started.....

You see - if the dean had called my kid in earlier - it would not have helped what had happened later... I was at a loss - I was so fearful for my daughter.... But God - opened that door of communication.. He knew I was desperate .... He knew my kid needed me.... He showed me He loved me regardless of how I was feeling about Him.... He is much bigger than my human emotions.. .. His love is far greater than I could ever imagine... I am in awe... I am humbled..

Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. if I rise on the wings of dawn if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. Psalm 139:7-9

8 comments:

Denise said...

We need to learn that HE knows exactly what HE is doing...... This is a beautiful story of HIS timing.. Thanking the Father with you..

Karen said...

Amen! That precious, unconditional love...and perfect timeline....

stirringthedeep.com said...

God's timing is perfect - He is always in control . . . I've been thinking this week that if I really understood the love God has for me I would never worry or doubt. It is a hard lesson to learn and one I think we learn a little at a time. Thankfully His faithfulness isn't dependent upon ours because so often we show little faith.

God understands us- He knows us far better than even ourselves. His mercy abounds toward us and may we never forget that.

Rachel

stirringthedeep.com said...

. . . and I'm so thankful for the reconcilation of you and your daughter -- these are tough years. The teenage years were some of my hardest - glad to be done and glad I don't have to go back.

Rachel

JT said...

This is another instance when God knows what He is doing. May God Bless You.

Owner of Homeschool Faith and Family Life Website said...

I see that this is an older post...but I hope that things have gotten better for your sweet daughter and that the Lord has continued to lead you all in peace and keeps you in the palm of His perfect hand. Parenting and family life is SO HARD sometimes. God bless you all Kelly...I really hope that your crisis resolved and that broken hearts will mend.

A Peculiar Person said...

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God Bless!

Brown Shoe said...

Mother and daughter relationships can be a rocky road~ been there done that got the t shirt. Only by the Grace of God!!! :)

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